I am writing this because I am afraid for my life.
For my safety and the safety of my children, I cannot reveal my name. But I need help.
Some time ago, my husband told me he had secured a job in the United Kingdom. He said he was leaving Kenya to start working there and that he would later support us from abroad. I believed him. He travelled and I remained in Kenya with our children.
Months later, I discovered something that shattered me.
Through social media, I found a woman on TikTok who appeared to be living with him. When I confronted her, she told me something that left me numb. She said the man I knew as my husband was also her husband. She even claimed they had a marriage certificate.
That is the moment my world changed.
I decided not to fight. I told my husband that if he wanted to move on with another life, I was willing to accept co-parenting for the sake of the children. I told him clearly that I would never deny him access to his kids. All I wanted was peace.
But peace never came.
Months later, he suddenly returned to Kenya from the United Kingdom. When he arrived early in the morning at our home in Kitengela, he thought I had sold two vehicles he had left there. When he saw that the cars were still parked in the compound and everything in the house was intact, his attitude changed.
I told him calmly that after everything that had happened, I could not continue living with him as husband and wife.
Throughout our relationship he had repeatedly spent time with other women. It had become a pattern wherever we lived. I told him I was done with that life.
That is when the nightmare began.
He started tracking me everywhere I go.
He appears in places where I am with friends. He shows up suddenly even when I am out briefly. It feels like someone is always watching me. He has told me openly that he will not allow me to live my life in peace.
He says we must live together by force.
He tells me that if he lets me go, another man will get me and that it would destroy him.
I have tried to explain that the relationship is over, but he refuses to accept it.
There have been several terrifying incidents.
One night he followed me and forcefully took me from where I was. He drove me away and took me to a forest in the Kitisuru area of Nairobi late at night. I was terrified. He threatened to kill me if I refused to return and live with him.
I remember kneeling down and begging for my life.
I truly believed I might die that night.
He even called my mother and told her she would see us on the news the next day if I refused to live with him again.
I had no choice but to agree just to survive that moment.
After that, I still asked him to give me space and allow me to live peacefully with the children. Instead, his anger escalated.
He broke both television screens in the house.
He took away a phone that belonged to our house help.
The intimidation continues.
I live with constant fear that he might appear anywhere at any time. I feel like I am being watched and followed.
I am sharing this story because I do not know what else to do. I am afraid something worse could happen.
I am asking for help from organizations that deal with gender-based violence, from authorities, and from anyone who can help protect me and my children.
I only want one thing.
To live in peace and safety.
If anything happens to me, I want people to know that I tried to speak out.
